to 2010. I have to say, so far it has been nothing that I was expecting.
My dad successfully made it through brain surgery. The past couple weeks have been difficult with everything involving my pops. Emotions that go from balanced and confident to depressed and tearful, and back again. I am so thankful for my family thus far. Brian has been on the front line dealing with the doctors, grilling them, researching on his own, asking every possible question under the sun, and then relaying the information back to us. Needless to say his stress level is through the roof. Poor little Mo has to deal with being oh so far away during all of this which makes it almost unbearable for her. Paddy has been silently strong, but equally stressed. My mom has handled everything thus far with grace and class, doing her best to not let her worries and fears get the best of her. I have noticed my love for my dad and his wife Beccy has been getting deeper by the day. I have had every possible emotion pass through my body. For the most part I have been sitting in silence processing every minute. I haven't wanted to be talkative at all. I have been flooded with so many childhood memories lately. Almost every childhood memory I have with my dad is a happy one. He is a hard worker, he is a giver, he is a superstar grandpa, he is a fighter. He has been our "hub". I am so thankful to be back in Reno and closer to my family. Life is short. I am so thankful for every member of my family. They are all a part of who I am.
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Love you Rae Rae.... As I look back at my feelings about 2010 I said I was VERY excited for a new year that will bring all good things. I have to say... I think it still is... technically the tumor was found= AWESOME, they got it out=AWESOME... so the yucky tumor that 2009 brought has been removed.... the repercussions are something we can deal with :)
I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!
ps- I have been listening to Kenny Loggins for days. I think "I'm Alright" is the best for the present situation.
I felt I should clarify about "I'm alright" I LOVE this song... but at the moment I am enjoying the Happy parts of it, not the "leave me alone" parts.. HAHAH FYI. DO NOT LEAVE ME ALONE... keep me posted. ahhaha LOVE YOU!!!!!
Er', your honest and open way of sharing all this only brings your family, and all the rest of us, closer. I can't begin to tell you how in awe I am. I still choke up when I look at that photo of all of you outside the restaurant, the night before your dad's surgery.
Not because it was some sort of "end" -- but because it's a beginning, stepping off into a big unknown. But you're all stepping off into it together. I can't imagine having a more supportive group than that Egan lineup in that snapshot.
See you this summer, if not sooner. And I'll keep reading.
Love,
Uncle Pat
Hey Trick-o... I think you meant to say "I can't imagine having a more supportive group than that Egan lineup in that snapshot and MoMo too of course."
:) haha. Love you! :)
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