How willing am I?

From a conversation I had today with someone full of wisdom.: 'It isn't always about the revelations that God allows you to have, but more about how willing you are to let Him change you after he reveals them to you'

So, my question: How willing am I ?
Am I willing to make the changes necessary to keep me growing into the person God has created me to be?
What does that look like? How do I get there?

The good news is that God gets how ridiculous I can be. He knows how over analytical, judgmental, hypocritical, and full of failure I can be! He already knows every evil thought, evil desire, every sin, every act of disobedience and every single time I will fall short way before it ever comes to be.  Here's the best part: He is CRAZY IN LOVE WITH ME ANYWAY.

But because he loves me so much, he refuses to leave me the way that I am.  His desire is that I would be continually growing and experiencing everything that he has set up for me to experience in this lifetime.  I will ask him to show me areas of my life that need change. When I pray for him to step in and change me, (attitude, parenting, self control, etc) I have to know that I also must be willing to do my part when he is ready to grow me a little bit more. I have to be willing to surrender to him daily which usually goes something like this,
"God, I give you my entire day, I know what I want and need to get done but I need your help. My attitude has sucked lately. Please help me to keep my mouth closed if nothing useful or kind is going to come out of it, help me to be gentle, loving and understanding. Humble me. Replace my selfishness with your selflessness. I am aware that I cannot do anything good without you, so please take over in every area and don't let me get in the way".

I usually feel filled up and ready to go about my day after spending some time praying.  It doesn't take long, though, for God to set up my first obstacle course.  This comes in the form of kids fighting, coffee spilling, running late, forgetting homework, messy kitchen, road rage, grumpy people, financial worries, or whatever else that comes along with this life I'm leading. This is the time when God gives me the opportunity to: smile instead of scream, remain calm instead of freak out, trust instead of fear, give instead of take,  and place more importance on loving than on being right.  These "opportunities" are available every single day.  When I go against my flesh and practice obedience in these areas I am  "willing". He will give me the same opportunities for however long it takes me to master them.  Sigh.  I'd like to say I get it the first time the challenge is put in front of me;  but some of these things I have been working on for years.  Luckily, God isn't sick of me trying and failing.  He's excited to set up the obstacle courses for as long as it takes!